just another blog

okay okay so it's been a long time since i updated again but as i've said before i really don't want to just fill my blog with mindless rubbish and one sentence posts like "i'm bored today", it's a waste of your time and the blog provider's space... well i know that something as short as that isn't exactly going to break any servers but i still think it'd be a bit... rude.
but anyway, that's not the reason i have summoned you here (if you found your own way here, well done)...
as you may well be aware i've been waiting to have a minor operation since originally going in to have it done in december, but hospital policies and other such hassles got it delayed to a possible date in march. march came, march went, april arrived.
well i got a letter last week from somebody under the impression i had spoken to somebody on the phone to arrange an appointment for yesterday (thursday 6th of april).
this got me excited as i thought i was finally going to get it out of the way and be able to finally start looking for work (i didn't want to get myself a job while i still didn't know when the operation was going to take place and how long i was going to have to take off), but on further inspection of the letter i discovered it was just to see a specialist. long story short: operation ain't happening for another 3 to 6 months, and the chance of the pilonidal sinus (which is what i'm having "removed") recurring is 40 to 50%, and after the surgery i won't have a natal cleft anymore (it's the groove at the top of your arse where the buttocks form) because they're going to bring one side over and attach it to the other in an attempt to stop it coming back, which if you ask me sounds like a right pain in the arse...
all this may sound like i'm complaining about the NHS, but really i'm not, it's the politics behind the NHS, the way it's run and underfunded. i think the NHS is brilliant and a true example of a non-elitist way of treating the nation, it's there and free to anyone that needs it and that's a good thing.
but having said that i'm really quite annoyed at having to wait another 3 to 6 months to get this thing sorted, it really is uncomfortable sometimes when it decides to flare up and just sitting down hurts. i wouldn't mind if it was a constant thing that's there all the time, i would adjust to it. but i never know when this thing is going to give me problems, it could flare up twice in a week or once in two, and it's not always as bad as it was the last time or as good, so it's very hard to adjust to it and therefore it can greatly effect my mood and the way i behave.
BUT, i have a plan. i'm just going to try get on with my life and ignore it the best i can, i'm going to get myself a job, work harder on trying to get myself fit, save some money, try to find myself a nice girlfriend, travel the world a bit and just try to be happier. not in that exact order mind you, but you get the idea.
well that's it for another blog i suppose, i hope i haven't bored you all too much and i promise i'll try update more often and with some more interesting stuff.
-c

for a while now i've been thinking about dying my hair, not a wild crazy colour or anything, not that i have anything against people dying their hair red/green/blue what have you (personally i love blue hair on women...), i just want a nice natural looking colour so i've been thinking about going blonde, technically i am actually already blonde but it's really dark compared to when i was but a wee young boy with golden curly locks...
normally i just have my hair shaved off or keep it very short, but after my last haircut (which was actually a trim and not a massacre) i decided to let my hair grow and it's coming along nicely, the thing is that it's getting a little thin on top due to the horrific sunburn i suffered a while ago which you may have read about, so i want to make the most of my hair while i still have it as i'm not sure if the damage done will ever properly heal.
the only thing that's kinda making me think twice is that i really have no idea how it will look and it means i really will have to keep up the shaving and quite possibly get rid of my sideburns, if you can even really call them that...
i know it's not really a life changing decision to make but still i'm having a hard time making it, i think my parents just think i'm being stupid and won't go through with it anyway, but if i can make what is to me a radical decision to actually go ahead and do it and feel confident in having done it who knows what else it might give me the confidence to do...
-c

it's 6:31am by my clock and i've been awake for about 40 minutes, some may say that getting up so early means i have the whole day ahead of me which just isn't true.
if i had got up at midnight when the day was just beginning then i would have had the whole day ahead of me but as it happens i have missed nearly 6 hours of it, so i really only have the whole afternoon and evening ahead of me, so what is the point of getting up early?

in other news (although it's not news because i'm trying to keep that kind of stuff off the blog but may setup another one where i just complain about stuff), nothing is really happening right now except me wishing it was march as i'm expecting a phonecall from hospital about getting a date to go have some minor surgery. if you're really interested it's to have a pilonidal sinus removed which i've had for over a year but only just saw about at the end of last year as it's been getting worse, and for those of you too lazy to go look at a medical encyclopaedia a pilonidal sinus is like a tunnel in your lower back which is full of hairs, this creates an infection and in most cases it finds a way to erupt out through an opening it creates in your natal cleft (it's the lower back where your buttocks form) which is kept as a constantly healing wound which will either bleed or expel pus, it can be very uncomfortable.
i was supposed to have surgery for it last year after my doctor phoned through the hospital and spoke to a surgeon, but it didn't quite work out as simple as me going into the hospital, going on to the ward and then having it done, no that would have been far too conveniant, instead of that i had to go to A&E and hand a letter my doctor had wrote to the surgeon across to the receptionist, then i had to wait a while, then i got called into triage where i was asked some questions and somebody else read the letter, i then got sent back out into the waiting room only to be called in again a while later to have a canular put in, some blood taken and saline injected.
then it's out in the waiting room again, only i can't relax because i have what is basically a plastic tap sticking out of my arm. then a while later i got taken to a ward where more people spoke to me and then after being at the hospital i got told that although the surgery was necesarry it wasn't an urgent case so i got sent home with some anti-biotics and a note for my doctor, and now apparently everything COULD be set for march.
this has been a real drawback for me as i was hoping to get a job in january, but now it looks as if i may not be able to look for one until april after the open wound that the surgery will leave has fully healed, it's a bloody nightmare as i wanted to start saving money for something and now i'm gonna have less time to save, if i can even get a job.
well i really hate to complain like that and i feel it wasn't really that necessary, i could have just made something interesting up or not bothered writing a blog at all, but as i have the whole day ahead of me i am very bored as i always am on a sunday.
well that's really all i can be bothered to write for now, i may update again soon and start talking about games and music and stuff that i like, but i'd really like to start a new blog for that, or even a website as i own a domain and a bit of space but it really depends on how i'm feeling later.
goodbye for now.
-c

well it sure has been a while, hasn't it?
perhaps not, it depends on whether or not you believe that time actually exists, i don't believe it does.
time is just an invention, a theory if you will. i like to think of it as a ruler designed for measuring actions, such as the one our current time is based on - how long it takes the earth to spin once on it's axis and how long it takes the earth to fully orbit the sun, these numbers were then divided up into sections: seconds, minutes, hours, days and months, months being less accurate as they contain varying numbers of days.
but the findings are not entirely accurate hence the need for an extra day every four years, which i have a problem with...
we know there are 365 days in a normal year and 366 days in a leap year, so by my calculations every 1460 years there is an extra year, and i'm not even a scientist.
this finding has some very severe implications, using this theory i am able to calculate that the actual year is not 2005, but more like 2007, it's not october either, it's more likely to be January, i'd need to do some more precise calculations to tell you the exact date as i'm just working this stuff out in my head right now.
it really is quite interesting when you think about it and opens up a lot of questions about the way our universe really works.
-c

i'm just sitting here being a little bit bored while listening to some music so i thought i'd update the blog quickly.
not that much has happened since the last time, we had a family party here last saturday which was quite good, various family members and friends came over to drink, eat food and listen to loud music within the confines of our home.
the most popular beverages of the night seemed to be beer and wine, but i was drinking gin, bombay sapphire to be precise, it's a very nice blend of 10 different ingredients from around the world all ginified and stored in a nice blue glass bottle (this often leads people to believe that the liquid itself is blue, which it isn't), it's very nice with tonic water and some ice, mmm, and i drank a 75cl bottle of it all by myself, then i started on another bottle of cheaper gin with bitter lemon because all the tonic water ran out, needless to say i got just a tad drunk and started talking rubbish.
once the party had died down and most people had gone i started feeling sober again so i went out with my dad when he walked my sister and cousin home and on the way back i started to feel more drunk, which was odd because i usually sober up very quickly which is why i hardly ever drink, but i had never been drunk on gin before as i'm normally a spiced rum man.
anyway, once we got back i poured myself another drink and sat down now feeling more drunk than i had previously, then when my mum and dad went to bed i came upstairs and attempted to type on irc while talking to myself, i also phoned somebody up on their mobile and woke him and his family up before finally deciding to go to bed becaus i felt a little dizzy, this was around 3am, i slept okay until just after 8am when i got up to get a glass of water, a big mistake as i started feeling ill as soon as i got up, but still, i ventured downstairs to see my dad was already awake and sitting in the living room, so i went into the kitchen and had some water then went and sat in the living room talking to my dad while the ill feelings and dizziness continued to worsen, then my dad left the room to go to the toilet and i was just sitting there feeling really ill and that's when i realised that i was going to be sick, so i casually strolled along to the downstairs toilet, bent down and prepared myself for what was about to happen, and surely enough it did, it lasted for about 2 or 3 minutes and then i rinsed my mouth out and went to sit down again, when my dad came back downstairs i decided that i needed more sleep and made my way to the spare room as it actually has a bed in it and i wouldn't be sleeping so close to the floor, i took a bucket and some toilet paper with me.
as i was laying there trying to sleep i could feel something happening inside my stomach, the feeling of wanting to be sick was returning but i really couldn't be bothered to vomit anymore so i turned so i was facing the wall and went to sleep for a few more hours, i felt a bit better when i woke up and had something to eat, i wasn't sick again but i did still feel a bit uneasy and by the time night came i was feeling really ill so i had an earlyish night and felt much better when i woke up and decided not to drink again for a while, not that i drink that often in the first place, that was the first time in over a year i had been drunk, but i think i may stick to the spiced rum in future as i've never had a hangover while drinking that stuff, although i do tend to drink it from longer glasses filled to the top with lemonade and only a small amount of rum so that the drink has a nice light gold colour and so you can only just taste the rum, i couldn't do that with the gin though as we only had two bottles of tonic water, forcing me to drink from smaller glasses and doubles.
but anyway, that's about it for now and i hope to update again soon.
-c

bombay sapphire has a stylish website here www.bombaysapphire.com which has some nice music playing