http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/en-UKMokoFeed10http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/a4/a35f283c65b5ebb5119b8f79f15cec_160x200.jpghttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/05/01/question_time_courtesy_of_jemdoe~767490/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2006-05-01:/2006/05/01/question_time_courtesy_of_jemdoe~767490/Mon, 01 May 2006 01:56:39 +0200 <p>as i mention in the title this little questionnaire comes courtesy of jemdoe's blog which is <a href="http://jemdoe.blog.co.uk/"><br> here </a><br> 1) If you were an alien, what characteristics would you have?<br> i'd have longer arms, never get tired, glow in the dark and speak in farts...</p> <p>2) An asteroid is going to hit earth in 5 minutes. You spend that time making the best love of your life. Who is it with?<br> either Jessica Alba, Daryl Hannah or Susan Sarandon... or Erika Foyster, the only girl i've ever fallen in love with...</p> <p>3) Which would you rather have: £1million in cash, or a trip via Virgin into space?<br> i'd take the money, visit japan and move to finland...</p> <p>4) Are cigarette smokers more attractive than non smokers?<br> personality wise there probably is, if somebody you find attractive and got together with wasn't willing to give up smoking for you they obviously don't care that much about you. </p> <p>5) What would you do in your 15 minutes of fame?<br> end it after 14 minutes and become famous for being the man who had 14 minutes of fame.</p> <p>6) You are given the opportunity to go back in time, when would you go back to and why?<br> if it was a moment during my lifetime and i travelled back into my own past as myself i would go back to the day i started secondary school and change the outcome of the 4 and a half years that followed, therefore obliterating the future from which i travelled back in time from meaning i would have never been able to travel back in time or had travelled back in time already and my intervention had led to the exact same events happening therefore creating an endless loop in which i constantly mess up my own life trying to make it better... that's pretty much why i don't believe time travel to be possible (that and i don't actually believe in the existence of time itself)...</p> <p>7) What would be the most romantic way a person could ask you out?<br> i've never been asked out (or asked anyone out for that matter) so that's really hard for me to answer, i suppose somebody just feeling that way about me would be romantic enough. there's plenty of time for romance in the relationship.</p> <p>8) Which cartoon character would you say is most like you?<br> Dangermouse, he's in control of any situation on a small enough scale for him to handle... or perhaps it's just because DM is so damn awesome <img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>9) You find a lamp, you rub it, as you do, and a genie appears. The mean bugger only gives you one wish, what would it be? (and you can't act all miss america and ask for world peace etc.)<br> to rule the world!</p> <p>10) One word to describe you.....<br> lonely </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/05/01/question_time_courtesy_of_jemdoe~767490/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>question-timequestionnairehttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/05/01/question_time_courtesy_of_jemdoe~767490/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/21/how_do_you_feel_about_summer~743643/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2006-04-21:/2006/04/21/how_do_you_feel_about_summer~743643/Fri, 21 Apr 2006 03:03:37 +0200 <p>well i don't know about the rest of you but it definitely seems to me as if spring may have almost if not finally sprung and there has been a noticable change in the weather the past week or so (not that it's stopped my mum turning the bloody heating on full), so we could be in for another hot summer... oh dear.<br> i've not really got anything against summer but it tends to bring with it more disadvantages than the coldness of winter, a few examples being: hayfever (not a sufferer myself), flies, ants, clammyness, dehydration, sweating, stickyness, sunburn, woolworths's "back 2 school" adverts, my birthday, more daylight, noisy ice-cream vans, peer pressure to join in any family activity involving water, people cutting their grass early in the morning when you're trying to sleep, not having anything to do. the need to shower more than once a week...<br> but it does also have it's advantages. cold drinks, ice-cream, ice-lollies, the need to wear less clothing, barbecues, beautiful early sunrises and late sunsets (although those things are beautiful any time of the year), the summer holidays (applicable only to those attending educational facilities...), not having anything to do...<br> i can't really make my mind up about summer, i don't really like being too cold but i hate being too hot, plus it's a lot easier to get warmer than it is to get cooler.<br> so how do you feel about summer?<br> -c</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/21/how_do_you_feel_about_summer~743643/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>springhot-weathersummerhttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/21/how_do_you_feel_about_summer~743643/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/18/healthy_living_who_s_responsible~735378/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2006-04-18:/2006/04/18/healthy_living_who_s_responsible~735378/Tue, 18 Apr 2006 06:02:23 +0200 <p>i just recently logged on to the site only to discover i had two invitations waiting for me from people running similar sites about healthy living and one of the blogs there asked who is responsible for your health, i left a comment and it got me thinking...<br> who really is responsible for your health?<br> the most obvious and apparent answer is ofcourse that you are. it is after all your body and therefore your responsibility, but other people can help and make a big difference.<br> in my comment i touched upon the subject of it being your parents' responsibility when you are at a young age as this is a time in your life where decisions are made for you and not always because they are in your best interests but because it is the most conveniant.<br> i for instance didn't really lead that healthy a childhood, schooldinners were a lot different to what they probably are now in the 80s and early to mid 90s and we didn't really have a choice in the matter unless we took a lunchbox and again what we eat is left up to our parents, although more often than not when i took a lunchbox it included atleast one piece of fruit.<br> when i left junior school (ages 6/7 to 11) for the big bad world of secondary school we got a bit more choice in the matter of what we ate, and what we ate was pretty much junkfood (there was also a tuck shop which sold chocolate and crisps and stuff), and while i believe that freedom of choice is important, especially as you're growing up, as nobody really likes to be told what they can and can't eat, which is the main reaslon i hate these adverts trying to drum it into parents to feed their children nothing but wholegrain, omega 3 and "friendly" bacteria, i can kind of see the point in them; they're trying to educate parents as to what is best for their children. but this is wrong, they should be educating the kids so they can make their own minds up.<br> the topic of educating kids about the benefits of a healthy lifestyle brings me neatly on to my next topic: should schools do more to teach the young how important health is going to be them later on in life? i believe the answer is yes.<br> i myself am obese, partly due to the period of depression i went into after being diagnosed with epilepsy when i was 17, but i have always been of a "bigger build", or to give it the most effective label: slightly fat.<br> most of my diet as a kid consisted of food that had been fried or sweet things (whenever my nan would collect me and my sister from school when our parents were working we would get some money to spend as we chose in the nearby shop. this started off as 30p and then became 50p, and you could buy a lot more for 30-50p back then than you can now, depending on your choice you could get a bar of chocolate, packet of crisps and bottle of drink and still have some change left).<br> anyway, getting back to my point. i believe that schools should do more to educate children on the benefits of health and the disadvantages of being unhealthy.<br> i left school in 1997 just before my 16th birthday and i hadn't even been given a proper sexual education (but luckily i'd had the internet for quite a few months by then <img src="/img/smilies/graybigrazz.gif" alt=":P" class="middle" border="0">), letalone one in health.<br> if i had known from a younger age that stuffing my face with fried food and candy and not getting regular exercise and smoking (which i have never done and never will do) could lead to heart disease, diabetes and a whole range of other bad stuff i'm pretty certain i would worked harder to get myself healthier.<br> the fact of the matter is that i did not know that diabetes could be caused by obesity until a few years ago when my doctor sent me off for a blood test to test for it after i started showing some symptoms of developing it, luckily i don't have it.<br> i also didn't know what cholestrol was in relation to heart disease and was pretty ignorant as to the strain i was putting on my body by not taking care of it. although this could partly be due to a kind of catch 22 situation in which self-loathing for the way i looked led to me not caring about the way i treated myself which lead to depression which lead to comfort eating, and let me tell you that when you're comfort eating fruit, salad and mineral water aren't exactly the first items in the house you reach for, and we always used to have loads of junk in the house because my parents, especially my mum would buy it and still does, even though she seems to constantly be on diets, whenever i mention to her that she shouldn't buy it she just says to me "well, you don't have to eat it". i know this. you know this. but it being there doesn't exactly help me or give me any incentive not to eat it (i compare this to somebody that's trying to quit smoking suddenly finding themselves being surrounded by lots of other people smoking; it doesn't make it impossible, but it doesn't make it any easier either), i'll only eat what's available to me and due to the fact i don't really like to leave the house i'm not exactly going out and buying the stuff myself. not that i'm trying to dump the blame completely on my parents or anything, i just feel there is a lot other people can do to help you help yourself.<br> so, taking all that into consideration the question becomes a lot harder to answer.<br> i really do try my best to be healthy but it really is difficult after all those years of just neglecting my body, i'm not blaming my lack of education or upbringing completely as there are other people out there from my generation who are slim and healthy, but i really do struggle to lose weight. although after finding out i have an underactive thyroid sometime last year and being on medication to rectify the problem it is becoming a bit easier, i also take Xenical (or Orlistat to give it it's proper name) to help reduce the amount of fat my body absorbs from food, and if you know anything about this certain drug you'll know that it discourages you from eating anything high in fat...<br> but after all this i suppose at the end of the day it's your body and your decision, and whether you're educated or not you're going to do what you like. just don't be surprised if one day your weight (in stones) is equal or greater to your age (mine is lower thankfully) in years and you regret not doing something about it sooner.<br> -c </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/18/healthy_living_who_s_responsible~735378/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>weight-lossobesityhealthhealthy-livinghttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/18/healthy_living_who_s_responsible~735378/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/17/i_hate_depression~732867/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2006-04-17:/2006/04/17/i_hate_depression~732867/Mon, 17 Apr 2006 02:54:05 +0200 <p>i really do hate depression. one day i'm really low, as demonstrated by my last blog, and the next i'm happy. it does my bloody head in.<br> i know i've said i'm going to avoid these kinds of short posts but i thought i should let people know that i haven't gone and topped myself or anything and that i'm fine, and how much i really hate depression.<br> -c </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/17/i_hate_depression~732867/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>happydepressionhttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/17/i_hate_depression~732867/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/13/no_ambition_no_dreams_no_future~725439/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2006-04-13:/2006/04/13/no_ambition_no_dreams_no_future~725439/Thu, 13 Apr 2006 18:08:59 +0200 <p>do you ever have one of those days where you just start thinking about your future and the things you've regretted doing and not doing in the past? i'm having one of those days today.<br> i've not been sleeping well recently and that always makes me depressed, and when i am depressed i start thinking about things and get this overwhelming sensation of loneliness, that everyone but me is getting on with their life and out having a good time. so i've been thinking about my past, or more precisely the lack of it. no i haven't suddenly come down with amnesia and can't remember anything further back than this morning, i just don't haven't done that much that's worth remembering. there are a few good memories and enjoyable things i've done, but there seems to be lots of empty space between them all with bad memories scattered around between them.<br> all this makes me worry about what's going to happen in the future, i'm 25 this year and i'm still living at home, i have no real friends, i've never been in a relationship, i haven't had a job since just before i was 18 so i have no money. usually this would be the point where somebody puts that there's so much they want to do, but if i'm honest there really isn't that much i want to do, there's so little i want from life right now i can't help but wonder if that's been my problem all along.<br> i have no real ambitions, no dreams (they're more like daydreams) beyond falling in love, getting married and having kids. but i'm not really doing anything about it. okay so it is kind of hard when you're agoraphobic and have social anxiety disorder to just step out into the world and try make something of your life, but the thing is i wasn't always agoraphobic and i was always more shy than anxious about being around people, but i never did anything back then and it's left me with this deep seeded feeling of self-loathing and the frightening realisation that somehow it's all my own fault that life just isn't working out for me.<br> now don't get me wrong, this isn't some kind of cry for pity, help or even a suicide note or me trying to say don't make the same mistakes that i have, get on with your life and be happy. i like being alive, the alternatives aren't really that appealing to me. and i need pity like i need things i don't need that much, and most of all i know that none but myself can help me turn my life around, but i'm wondering if it's getting too late for me, i know 24 isn't exactly old and that i still have lots of time to do things, i just don't know what to do and am afraid that by the time i do it'll be too late to do them.<br> well hopefully reading all this hasn't depressed you, it's actually made me feel a bit better talking about it. although it would be a lot nicer talking to somebody in person (or atleast vocally) about it, and i don't mean a psychiatrist or some other so called and self-appointed expert who's job it is to listen to that kind of thing, i mean a real person. anyone.<br> -c </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/13/no_ambition_no_dreams_no_future~725439/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>memorieslonelinessdreamsfutureambitionself-loathingdepressionfrightening-realisationhttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/13/no_ambition_no_dreams_no_future~725439/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/07/title~709275/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2006-04-07:/2006/04/07/title~709275/Fri, 07 Apr 2006 09:32:56 +0200 <p>okay okay so it's been a long time since i updated again but as i've said before i really don't want to just fill my blog with mindless rubbish and one sentence posts like "i'm bored today", it's a waste of your time and the blog provider's space... well i know that something as short as that isn't exactly going to break any servers but i still think it'd be a bit... rude.<br> but anyway, that's not the reason i have summoned you here (if you found your own way here, well done)...<br> as you may well be aware i've been waiting to have a minor operation since originally going in to have it done in december, but hospital policies and other such hassles got it delayed to a possible date in march. march came, march went, april arrived.<br> well i got a letter last week from somebody under the impression i had spoken to somebody on the phone to arrange an appointment for yesterday (thursday 6th of april).<br> this got me excited as i thought i was finally going to get it out of the way and be able to finally start looking for work (i didn't want to get myself a job while i still didn't know when the operation was going to take place and how long i was going to have to take off), but on further inspection of the letter i discovered it was just to see a specialist. long story short: operation ain't happening for another 3 to 6 months, and the chance of the pilonidal sinus (which is what i'm having "removed") recurring is 40 to 50%, and after the surgery i won't have a natal cleft anymore (it's the groove at the top of your arse where the buttocks form) because they're going to bring one side over and attach it to the other in an attempt to stop it coming back, which if you ask me sounds like a right pain in the arse...<br> all this may sound like i'm complaining about the NHS, but really i'm not, it's the politics behind the NHS, the way it's run and underfunded. i think the NHS is brilliant and a true example of a non-elitist way of treating the nation, it's there and free to anyone that needs it and that's a good thing.<br> but having said that i'm really quite annoyed at having to wait another 3 to 6 months to get this thing sorted, it really is uncomfortable sometimes when it decides to flare up and just sitting down hurts. i wouldn't mind if it was a constant thing that's there all the time, i would adjust to it. but i never know when this thing is going to give me problems, it could flare up twice in a week or once in two, and it's not always as bad as it was the last time or as good, so it's very hard to adjust to it and therefore it can greatly effect my mood and the way i behave.<br> BUT, i have a plan. i'm just going to try get on with my life and ignore it the best i can, i'm going to get myself a job, work harder on trying to get myself fit, save some money, try to find myself a nice girlfriend, travel the world a bit and just try to be happier. not in that exact order mind you, but you get the idea.<br> well that's it for another blog i suppose, i hope i haven't bored you all too much and i promise i'll try update more often and with some more interesting stuff.<br> -c </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/07/title~709275/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>nhsget-on-with-my-lifeoperationpilonidal-sinushttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/04/07/title~709275/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/02/21/dye_another_day~580232/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2006-02-21:/2006/02/21/dye_another_day~580232/Tue, 21 Feb 2006 13:37:03 +0100 <p>for a while now i've been thinking about dying my hair, not a wild crazy colour or anything, not that i have anything against people dying their hair red/green/blue what have you (personally i love blue hair on women...), i just want a nice natural looking colour so i've been thinking about going blonde, technically i am actually already blonde but it's really dark compared to when i was but a wee young boy with golden curly locks...<br> normally i just have my hair shaved off or keep it very short, but after my last haircut (which was actually a trim and not a massacre) i decided to let my hair grow and it's coming along nicely, the thing is that it's getting a little thin on top due to the horrific sunburn i suffered a while ago which you may have read about, so i want to make the most of my hair while i still have it as i'm not sure if the damage done will ever properly heal.<br> the only thing that's kinda making me think twice is that i really have no idea how it will look and it means i really will have to keep up the shaving and quite possibly get rid of my sideburns, if you can even really call them that...<br> i know it's not really a life changing decision to make but still i'm having a hard time making it, i think my parents just think i'm being stupid and won't go through with it anyway, but if i can make what is to me a radical decision to actually go ahead and do it and feel confident in having done it who knows what else it might give me the confidence to do...<br> -c </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/02/21/dye_another_day~580232/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>confidencedyeblondedyinghairhttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/02/21/dye_another_day~580232/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/02/19/yikes0rz~573821/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2006-02-19:/2006/02/19/yikes0rz~573821/Sun, 19 Feb 2006 07:59:28 +0100 <p>it's 6:31am by my clock and i've been awake for about 40 minutes, some may say that getting up so early means i have the whole day ahead of me which just isn't true.<br> if i had got up at midnight when the day was just beginning then i would have had the whole day ahead of me but as it happens i have missed nearly 6 hours of it, so i really only have the whole afternoon and evening ahead of me, so what is the point of getting up early?</p> <p>in other news (although it's not news because i'm trying to keep that kind of stuff off the blog but may setup another one where i just complain about stuff), nothing is really happening right now except me wishing it was march as i'm expecting a phonecall from hospital about getting a date to go have some minor surgery. if you're really interested it's to have a pilonidal sinus removed which i've had for over a year but only just saw about at the end of last year as it's been getting worse, and for those of you too lazy to go look at a medical encyclopaedia a pilonidal sinus is like a tunnel in your lower back which is full of hairs, this creates an infection and in most cases it finds a way to erupt out through an opening it creates in your natal cleft (it's the lower back where your buttocks form) which is kept as a constantly healing wound which will either bleed or expel pus, it can be very uncomfortable.<br> i was supposed to have surgery for it last year after my doctor phoned through the hospital and spoke to a surgeon, but it didn't quite work out as simple as me going into the hospital, going on to the ward and then having it done, no that would have been far too conveniant, instead of that i had to go to A&E and hand a letter my doctor had wrote to the surgeon across to the receptionist, then i had to wait a while, then i got called into triage where i was asked some questions and somebody else read the letter, i then got sent back out into the waiting room only to be called in again a while later to have a canular put in, some blood taken and saline injected.<br> then it's out in the waiting room again, only i can't relax because i have what is basically a plastic tap sticking out of my arm. then a while later i got taken to a ward where more people spoke to me and then after being at the hospital i got told that although the surgery was necesarry it wasn't an urgent case so i got sent home with some anti-biotics and a note for my doctor, and now apparently everything COULD be set for march.<br> this has been a real drawback for me as i was hoping to get a job in january, but now it looks as if i may not be able to look for one until april after the open wound that the surgery will leave has fully healed, it's a bloody nightmare as i wanted to start saving money for something and now i'm gonna have less time to save, if i can even get a job.<br> well i really hate to complain like that and i feel it wasn't really that necessary, i could have just made something interesting up or not bothered writing a blog at all, but as i have the whole day ahead of me i am very bored as i always am on a sunday.<br> well that's really all i can be bothered to write for now, i may update again soon and start talking about games and music and stuff that i like, but i'd really like to start a new blog for that, or even a website as i own a domain and a bit of space but it really depends on how i'm feeling later.<br> goodbye for now.<br> -c </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/02/19/yikes0rz~573821/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>hospitalwaitingpilonidal-sinushttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2006/02/19/yikes0rz~573821/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/10/18/do_you_believe_in_time~243877/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-10-18:/2005/10/18/do_you_believe_in_time~243877/Tue, 18 Oct 2005 22:49:12 +0200 <p>well it sure has been a while, hasn't it?<br> perhaps not, it depends on whether or not you believe that time actually exists, i don't believe it does.<br> time is just an invention, a theory if you will. i like to think of it as a ruler designed for measuring actions, such as the one our current time is based on - how long it takes the earth to spin once on it's axis and how long it takes the earth to fully orbit the sun, these numbers were then divided up into sections: seconds, minutes, hours, days and months, months being less accurate as they contain varying numbers of days.<br> but the findings are not entirely accurate hence the need for an extra day every four years, which i have a problem with...<br> we know there are 365 days in a normal year and 366 days in a leap year, so by my calculations every 1460 years there is an extra year, and i'm not even a scientist.<br> this finding has some very severe implications, using this theory i am able to calculate that the actual year is not 2005, but more like 2007, it's not october either, it's more likely to be January, i'd need to do some more precise calculations to tell you the exact date as i'm just working this stuff out in my head right now.<br> it really is quite interesting when you think about it and opens up a lot of questions about the way our universe really works.<br> -c</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/10/18/do_you_believe_in_time~243877/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>the-theory-of-timehttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/10/18/do_you_believe_in_time~243877/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/09/01/being_drunk~156388/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-09-01:/2005/09/01/being_drunk~156388/Thu, 01 Sep 2005 18:27:55 +0200 <p>i'm just sitting here being a little bit bored while listening to some music so i thought i'd update the blog quickly.<br> not that much has happened since the last time, we had a family party here last saturday which was quite good, various family members and friends came over to drink, eat food and listen to loud music within the confines of our home.<br> the most popular beverages of the night seemed to be beer and wine, but i was drinking gin, bombay sapphire to be precise, it's a very nice blend of 10 different ingredients from around the world all ginified and stored in a nice blue glass bottle (this often leads people to believe that the liquid itself is blue, which it isn't), it's very nice with tonic water and some ice, mmm, and i drank a 75cl bottle of it all by myself, then i started on another bottle of cheaper gin with bitter lemon because all the tonic water ran out, needless to say i got just a tad drunk and started talking rubbish.<br> once the party had died down and most people had gone i started feeling sober again so i went out with my dad when he walked my sister and cousin home and on the way back i started to feel more drunk, which was odd because i usually sober up very quickly which is why i hardly ever drink, but i had never been drunk on gin before as i'm normally a spiced rum man.<br> anyway, once we got back i poured myself another drink and sat down now feeling more drunk than i had previously, then when my mum and dad went to bed i came upstairs and attempted to type on irc while talking to myself, i also phoned somebody up on their mobile and woke him and his family up before finally deciding to go to bed becaus i felt a little dizzy, this was around 3am, i slept okay until just after 8am when i got up to get a glass of water, a big mistake as i started feeling ill as soon as i got up, but still, i ventured downstairs to see my dad was already awake and sitting in the living room, so i went into the kitchen and had some water then went and sat in the living room talking to my dad while the ill feelings and dizziness continued to worsen, then my dad left the room to go to the toilet and i was just sitting there feeling really ill and that's when i realised that i was going to be sick, so i casually strolled along to the downstairs toilet, bent down and prepared myself for what was about to happen, and surely enough it did, it lasted for about 2 or 3 minutes and then i rinsed my mouth out and went to sit down again, when my dad came back downstairs i decided that i needed more sleep and made my way to the spare room as it actually has a bed in it and i wouldn't be sleeping so close to the floor, i took a bucket and some toilet paper with me.<br> as i was laying there trying to sleep i could feel something happening inside my stomach, the feeling of wanting to be sick was returning but i really couldn't be bothered to vomit anymore so i turned so i was facing the wall and went to sleep for a few more hours, i felt a bit better when i woke up and had something to eat, i wasn't sick again but i did still feel a bit uneasy and by the time night came i was feeling really ill so i had an earlyish night and felt much better when i woke up and decided not to drink again for a while, not that i drink that often in the first place, that was the first time in over a year i had been drunk, but i think i may stick to the spiced rum in future as i've never had a hangover while drinking that stuff, although i do tend to drink it from longer glasses filled to the top with lemonade and only a small amount of rum so that the drink has a nice light gold colour and so you can only just taste the rum, i couldn't do that with the gin though as we only had two bottles of tonic water, forcing me to drink from smaller glasses and doubles.<br> but anyway, that's about it for now and i hope to update again soon.<br> -c</p> <p>bombay sapphire has a stylish website here <a href="http://www.bombaysapphire.com">www.bombaysapphire.com</a> which has some nice music playing</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/09/01/being_drunk~156388/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>bombay-sapphirehttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/09/01/being_drunk~156388/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/08/20/yes_it_s_an_update/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-08-20:/2005/08/20/yes_it_s_an_update/Sat, 20 Aug 2005 23:44:04 +0200 <p>it's been a little while since i last updated this blog but there's not really been much to report and as you may well know i don't want to just fill this blog with one sentence rubbish or complaints about how crap the government or the world is, it's just not really my thing.<br> so, what has been happening since the last time i updated? well sit down and i'll tell you...<br> firstly and probably most noticably is that i had my 24th birthday some 20 days ago, it wasn't that big a deal really, it never is, i just went to pizza hut with my mum and sister and then we went round to my nan's where i got some cards and some socks (hey, i like socks), my nan was going to get me a pair of jeans the next time she went to romford market or some place like that, but that hasn't happened yet.<br> my dad did send some money down, or rather he transferred it to my mum's account about a week before so i could buy myself another graphics card because i had fried my older (and better) one some weeks before and was using an old pc before i got a new card, which was starting to drive me a little mad.<br> speaking of my dad, some of you (you know who you are) may know that he moved up to scotland in november last year after selling our old house and i moved in with my mum (the plan was i stayed here until he had secured a place and job up there and then i would move up, most of my stuff was moved up there too but things didn't exactly go according to plan...).<br> well, he's back now, he was missing me and my sister too much and he was just too used to living here to adjust to life back up in scotland. it's good having him back here because we always used to have a laugh together and i've been kinda withdrawn and pre-occupied with other things since he's been gone.<br> i also got some of my stuff back, not all of it because it was mostly all stored at my cousin's place in his spare room and my dad hadn't actually told any of his family that he was coming back (they would have just tried to talk him into staying or fell out with him trying), he just said that my mum was driving me up in her car to collect some of my stuff and then going back because i had decided i wasn't going to be moving up, when in actual fact my mum was driving up there with my sister in a big box truck to move mine and his stuff back, including his leather sofa and armchair (i am currently sitting in said armchair and very comfortable).<br> also i put in a claim for income support a number of weeks ago and after much form filling and other nonsense a giro cheque for £305 made it's way through the letterbox along with a letter telling me my claim had been successful, which kinda cheared me up a little, so far i've spent the money on mostly junk food but i still have a lot of it left and i paid the phonebill for my mum, and i plan on going to chelmsford on monday to buy a divx player and pop into cash connections (a bit like cash convertors only a bit less greedy) to see if i can pick up a cheap GameBoy Advance and some other bits that might interest me, they always seem to have some really classic pc games in good condition that they sell cheap.<br> so that's basically everything that's happened since the last time i updated and hopefully i'll update again soon with something interesting or to make you go "hmm"...<br> no picture again this blog, can't really think of an appropriate one.<br> -c </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/08/20/yes_it_s_an_update/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>updatehttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/08/20/yes_it_s_an_update/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/26/beards/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-07-26:/2005/07/26/beards/Tue, 26 Jul 2005 15:12:25 +0200 <p>so here we are once again dear readers, a new addition to this thing called blog.<br> now, i was thinking of doing something special, something i've not heard of being done before... but first i thought i would shave and get a haircut because it's been a while.<br> some of you may know that i usually just shave my head very short and do my facial hair at the same time, but i've decided that now i just want to keep myself shaved and my hair trimmed, but first i need to get a decent razor and some sensitive skin stuff so i don't end up with a pink, blotchy, scarred face like i usually do when i shave, i might invest in a decent electric razor as they don't really bother my face as much as a regular wet shave.<br> although i must admit that if my facial hair actually grew properly and allowed me to have a decent beard i might have kept a small one, just long enough for it to not be prickly, or perhaps even just a goatee, but i seem to have inherited the inability to grow a beard from my dad's side of the family and my ability to have body hair from my mum's side, although it's not very thick hair and you can actually see my skin underneath it without the use of a comb.<br> i do sometimes wish i didn't have as much body hair, just a little in the places men generally like to keep it but there's not much i can do about that.<br> anyway, that's about it for another update, i'll probably update again on or shortly after my birthday, or if i can think of anything mind alteringly brilliant to report it'll be sooner, but until then it's goodbye for now.<br> -c </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/26/beards/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>personal-groominghttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/26/beards/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/17/the_marshmallow_road/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-07-17:/2005/07/17/the_marshmallow_road/Sun, 17 Jul 2005 06:34:47 +0200 <p>well here i am sitting down at my pc at 5am on a sunday morning in july, it's light outside and i'm listening to Daft Punk's latest album through my headphones and i just realised that there are now two weeks until my birthday and it's got me thinking...<br> i'd really like to travel more, i've been wanting to visit norway for years so i can go meet my mate thomas and his family.<br> i've known him online for about 6 years now, i've also spoken to a lot of other norwegians during my time online and i have to say that they're some of the nicest people i've ever come across, so i'd really like to visit norway and see if i've come across a select few or if all norwegians are genuinely nice people.<br> in fact, i'd like to travel all over that part of the world, i've found that a lot of nordic and scandinavian people are pretty easy going and easy to talk to and actually willing to talk to people.<br> i'm actually hoping to go to finland next year to see two other people i know from the online world, one of them was in england very recently for a kind of gathering thingy with a few other people but i couldn't make it to go meet him, so i have to wait until next year.<br> there are a lot more other places i'd like to visit too as well as travel all over the UK, i've always really wanted to spend some time on Tokyo, everytime i see it on TV i just fall in love with the hugeness and masses of gadgetry and lights about the city, i'd really love to go up to the top of the tallest building there at night and just look over the city and be totally stunned by the view, i've viewed webcams of the toyko skyline and views from buildings but i'd really like to see it in person and get to hear the sounds, i've never really been to a big city before, just travelled briefly through london on my way to other places, but i've always liked big cities and would love to visit Hong Kong too.<br> i know there are plenty of other great places just hidden away too, i'd like to visit the kind of countries that people don't really think about visiting, Iceland looks really great with it's fresh water streams, geysers and waterfalls.<br> as well as big cities i also like wide open country and beautiful landscapes.<br> i think the only thing that's really been stopping me from doing all this is that i have nobody to go with, sure i could go on my own but i'd really like to experience it all with somebody else so when i am back home i have somebody to talk to about our memories of those places, i can actually picture myself doing it.<br> i'd also like to do it because i love flying, although i've only done it twice (four times if you count the time i went to spain, but i don't really remember much about those flights other than i got to go into the cockpit) and i really enjoyed it and would like to do it for more than 40 or 50 minutes at a time (i just flew from stansted to prestwick which is around 400 miles), there's something so overwhelmingly exhilerating and breathtaking about the feeling you get knowing you're flying thousands of feet above the ground and when the only thing you can see out of the window are the clouds beneath you like some kind of high speed marshmallow road, although it is actually amazing how slowly the clouds move beneath you with i think adds to the experience, you're never really aware of how fast you're travelling, i think too many people take flying for granted and never really stop to think what an amazing thing it is they're doing.<br> so hopefully i'll meet somebody who'd like to jet off with me and see more of the world.<br> -c</p> <p>edit: i forgot to mention that Thomas has his own blog over at <a href="http://code-x.blog.co.uk">http://code-x.blog.co.uk</a></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/17/the_marshmallow_road/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>travelhttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/17/the_marshmallow_road/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/14/the_sleeper_has_a_riesen/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-07-13:/2005/07/14/the_sleeper_has_a_riesen/Thu, 14 Jul 2005 00:52:03 +0200 <p>well isn't that just the strangest thing, just the other day i was saying how you can't get riesens here anymore (which is actually still partially true as here is england and my dad is in scotland) and earlier when i was on the phone to my dad he mentioned out of the blue that he had seen packs of riesen in his local farm foods supermarket, he can also get fruit toffos up there and is going to send a few down to me along with these ginger cracknel thingies which are a kinda hard ginger flavoured crunchy bit with a thin layer of chocolate on them. nice.<br> even though i am actually on a diet which i've stuck to more than i've pealed away from over the last few months i'm looking forward to getting that little parcel of goodness.<br> oh yes, before i forget i said in the last post that you could no longer get orangina, this is a lie as i meant to say Gini which was also an orange drink in a funny shaped glass bottle.<br> but anyway, not only am i interested in the things i can't get anymore, i'm also interested in the things i could never and probably will never get, which is why i like the cybercandy website over at <a href="http://www.cybercandy.co.uk">www.cybercandy.co.uk</a>, they import and sell products from other countries including drinks and even some extreme stuff such as scorpion and ant lollies...<br> you can also buy some stuff that is still available here but can be hard to find such as sherbert dip daps, flying saucers, wham, fruit salad and blackjack bars, candy lipstick, rainbow drops and a lot more. they also do a range of sweets and drinks that are packed full of caffeine, it's a really great site and they do bulk orders.<br> i haven't actually had anything off of them yet but i wouldn't mind ordering some raspberry cola.<br> anyway, that's it for this blog, thanks for reading it and feel free to comment or even just send some email my way, i like email, but i hardly ever get any.<br> hopefully i'll be able to think about something else to write about tomorrow so i can update the blog again, that would be nice...<br> -c<br> <img src="http://www.cybercandy.co.uk/images/raspberry%20coke.gif" alt="" title=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/14/the_sleeper_has_a_riesen/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>candyhttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/14/the_sleeper_has_a_riesen/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/08/wee_an_update/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-07-08:/2005/07/08/wee_an_update/Fri, 08 Jul 2005 16:38:05 +0200 <p>okay so it's been a little while since i last updated my blog, mostly due to me not wanting to just post really short sentences about nothing in particular or complaining about stuff.<br> so, 23 days until i'm 24, i don't really know what i'm going to be doing though, i shall probably just go out for a meal or to pizza hut or something, i'd really like to go to southend for the day and spend a bit of money in the teddy grabby machines then give half of my winnings away to the massive group of kids that usually gather around me, but i really don't know what's going to happen right now. it'd be nice to do something different for a change.<br> well, i've only ever actually done that once before on my 20th birthday, i went to walton and then later in the day to clacton where the teddy grabby machines aren't as good and tend to just drop everything, but i still enjoyed myself, and you could still get Metz back then too...<br> speaking of metz, it's another one of those things you can't get anymore. that really bothers me when they do that, they come along with some product that you enjoy but then the sales aren't good enough so they stop producing it, so many nice things have disappeared over the years in this country, here are a few of the ones i miss:<br> Metz, Reisens, Pretzel Flipz, Mountain Dew, the Hubba Bubba drink, Fruit Toffos (although my dad has seen them in scotland, but they're not the same as the ones you used to get), Dweebz, Nerdz, Tab Clear, Secret bars and Orangina.<br> ah what i wouldn't give to just have some of those things back for one day, mostly Reisens and the Hubba Bubba drink because there isn't anything else out there that tastes like them.<br> anyway, i'll try update the blog a bit more regularly from now on, now that the weather has cooled down a little bit it's a little easier to have ideas without them melting so hopefully i'll have something good to talk about in a few days.<br> -c </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/08/wee_an_update/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/07/08/wee_an_update/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/22/feeling_hot_hot_hot/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-22:/2005/06/22/feeling_hot_hot_hot/Wed, 22 Jun 2005 12:14:44 +0200 <p>it seems as though summer has arrived, the last few days the temperature has been in the mid to high twenties, it's been really sunny, the sky has been very blue and there is the smell of people having barbecues in the air.<br> summer always makes me feel pretty nostalgic, i think back to when i was younger and used to go on seaside holidays with my family, the best one being when we all went to the Barry Island holiday resort in wales (it's closed now due to it needing extensive and expensive repairs... ooh, i've just been doing some google searching and i think that it's actually re-opened) although now that i come to think of it i can't actually remember that much about it but it must have been good because the thought of it makes me happy.<br> another one of the best holidays i had when i was younger is when we went to majorca in spain for two weeks when i was about 6 or 7 years old, it was the first time i had stayed in a big hotel, it was so big in fact that i kept getting lost, i knew which room we were staying in but there were two sets of stairs you could go up for different sides of the hotel and i always forgot which one it was so i always just stayed down in the hotel swimming pool until somebody came and got me, which i didn't mind as i loved being in the water and some old guy had taught me how to dive under water by throwing in pennies and i would go down and get them, it was easy because i always keep my eyes open under water. and because i spent so much time out in the sun i got a really good tan which lasted for years, it's faded now though but i'd like it back.<br> another thing i remember about spain is that you could get red calypso ice lollies which i don't think i've seen in this country ever (come to think of it i haven't seen any type of calypso for a while) and they were really nice.<br> it really has been too long since i last had a holiday, there are lots of places i'd like to go and i think if i had the money and somebody to go with i'd probably travel more, four places i really want to go are tokyo, hong kong, iceland and norway. although i really do like traditional family holidays to the seaside here at home i would love to see more of the world.<br> ah, perhaps one day.<br> -c</p> <p><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/beach.jpg" alt="" title=""></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/22/feeling_hot_hot_hot/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>summer-timehttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/22/feeling_hot_hot_hot/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/16/love_10/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-16:/2005/06/16/love_10/Thu, 16 Jun 2005 20:06:46 +0200 <p>today i'm going to be talking about love.<br> now generally i don't really talk about love but i think about it a lot and how hard it is to explain the meaning of, it really needs it's own encyclopaedia it's that complex.<br> now, i've never really truly been in love with another person before, sure i've fancied people and really liked them and the feelings i had for one girl probably would be determined as love but i'm going by my own definition of the feeling and not the word itself.<br> i went to school with this girl and i always really liked her then but once i left school i never really saw much of her, i'd just maybe see her in town every now and then, but a while ago, probably longer than i think, i started seeing her more often as she worked in a pub (i think it was called CM8 at the time, although most people that know it still refer to it by it's former name which was The Crochet) i went to to play pool with my dad and two mates.<br> although when i did go there i didn't really sit around talking to her that much which i really regret, i just stayed in the little side room where the pool table was, but the thought of this girl used to give me butterflies and fill my entire body with a warmth like i had never felt before, i even dreamed about her telling her how i felt a few times.<br> this continued for a number of weeks until i got fed up just keeping everything inside and i decided that the next time i saw her i was going to tell her how i felt, i didn't care that she might not feel the same way i needed to get it off my chest.<br> but the next time i would have seen her which is when i went to play pool again she wasn't there, i thought she might just have been off work that day, so i went the next week and she still wasn't there and then i found out that the she had lost her job so the landlord could give her job to some girl that wasn't even old enough to be working in a pub. i felt gutted and over time the feelings i had just went away and i don't have them anymore, which is why i don't believe it was actually true love, it was just strong feelings for another person, or half-love as i like to call it.<br> you see, my idea of real love is feeling that way about somebody and telling them how you feel no matter what and having them feel the same way about you, otherwise it's just half-love again, for love to work i think both people need to feel the same way, and although i do believe in love at first sight i also believe that people can fall in love over time by getting to know eachother, by casting aside any differences or physical appearances and just be comfortable around eachother and feel that you can be yourselves.<br> i'm generally not into quotes and sayings to define things but there are two that i think describe my idea of what love is, the first is "love isn't find a perfect person it's seeing an imperfect person perfectly" and the other is from the movie Meet Joe Black in which somebody is asked something like how he knows he's in love with his wife and he replies "she knows the worst thing about me and it's okay".<br> two sentiments which i believe are absolutely true, i just hope that one day i find somebody that loves me for who i am and i get to experience true love for myself.<br> -c.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/16/love_10/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lovehttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/16/love_10/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/14/red_bull_sunburn/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-14:/2005/06/14/red_bull_sunburn/Tue, 14 Jun 2005 10:49:11 +0200 <p>still not much going on right now but you'll be glad to know that i'm no longer bored, in fact i'm unusually happy today which is really odd because i have a headache which usually depresses me.<br> i think it's because it's warm this morning when i woke up, apparently it's going to be a really warm week with temperatures getting as high as 26°c, all of which reminds me of something that happened last year...<br> if you live in the uk you'll know that last year we had some really hot weather in july and august, you may also recall seeing adverts on the tv for the 'Red Bull Soap Box Race', well i had never been to an outdoor event like that before so i decided to apply for two tickets so me and my dad could go, it was taking place about 10 days after my birthday and i was kinda looking forward to it.<br> so it's the day of the event and i'm up early, my dad got up earlier than me to prepare some sandwiches so we didn't have to pay through the nose for any food they might have at the event, we made sure to take plenty of drinks with us too. so once we're ready we head to the train station, get the tickets and wait around for the train to take us to london, then we have to travel around london on the underground to get to another station to take us to the place the event was being held, i can't remember the exact name of the place but it begins with S and there's a big GlaxoSmithKline in the area complete with protestors outside handing out leaflets about animal testing and stuff.<br> anyway, we get to the train station at the place beginning with S and have to get ourselves a taxi because we had no idea where we were going, me and my dad were both carrying a bag each with the stuff in but for some reason i put one down which was the one that had the sandwiches, sun hats, sun cream and painkillers in when i got out, we didn't realise until the guy had started driving away, we both shouted and started waving our arms but the guy either didn't see us or didn't take any notice and just went, bugger.<br> so we stand around a while at this roundabout where he had dropped us off waiting to see if he came back, which he didn't, so my dad goes up to this other taxi and asks the lady driving it if she knew the taxi bloke, turns out the guy wasn't actually a taxi driver but the delivery man for a local kebab shop who thought he'd earn a bit of extra money running people from the train station to the event, so we couldn't exactly phone the taxi base and ask for our stuff to be brought back.<br> so we decide to cut our losses and head off, then we noticed that there didn't seem to be any event taking place within seeing or hearing distance of where we were, there was just a bunch of people walking along this path so we decided to follow them, about a mile and a half over some fields later we get to the entrance and are completely knackered, luckily there was an ice cream van nearby so i got a lemonade icelolly (mmm, add that to my list of things i like) and devour it.<br> so we do a bit more walking and discover that there we thousands of people there, most of whom are standing at the side of the race track thing to get a good view, but there were big screens dotted around so me and my dad find a place to sit down, there was absolutely no shade provided by the event organisers (they had actually said people should dress for rainy weather on the leaflet) so everyone was sitting in the sun and it was about 30°c that day and the whole event lasts a few hours, so there i am sitting in this field in the sun with a near enough completely bald head (i'd had my hair shaved off a few days before) and wearing just shorts and a t-shirt, i don't know how long we actually ended up staying but i know we got through a bit of overpriced food and i had drunk most of the water before me and my dad had had enough, and i was starting to feel sick and was in pain from the sunburn on my arms, legs, hands, face and head and we decided to leave along with a load of other people who hadn't realised just how boring the day was going to be.<br> so, there we all were walking back across this field with it's uneven ground but pretty even grass on which i fell over twice and twisted my ankle before we got back to the roundabout, my dad phoned for a taxi and before long we were on our way back to the train station, london and then eventually home.<br> when we got home the first thing i did was go upstairs to the bathroom and soak near enough my entire body with cold water, then i saw just how bad the sunburn was on my head and face, i was completely red and later that day my head started what i can only describe as leaking what seemed to be water. anyway, i didn't sleep well that night and when i woke up i noticed the surface of my pillow felt crusty, so i got up, went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror and discovered that my head was all crusty and i had these dried yellow lines of what i assume was pus going down my head, so i rinse it off and go downstairs looking for aftersun, but we didn't have any. luckily i had a doctor's appointment that morning, i told him about my sunburn and he prescribed me some cream, which i put all over my sunburned areas which was pretty hard to do as the top of my hands seemed to be very tender, it seemed to cool the burning down for a while though, but putting it on my head was really horrible because when i started massaging the cream in the crusty skin and dried pus started forming little solid grains on my head, this went on for about 5 days and for about two weeks afterwards i kept feeling sick and dizzy and i didn't even get a tan!<br> all that for a day out i didn't even enjoy and i definitely won't be doing it this or any other year, i'm just glad i left when i did, i hate to imagine how bad the sunburn would have got if i had stayed any longer.<br> anyway, that's all for now.<br> -c</p> <p><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/redbull.jpg" alt="" title=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/14/red_bull_sunburn/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>sunburnhttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/14/red_bull_sunburn/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/12/less_boredom_more_sleep/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-12:/2005/06/12/less_boredom_more_sleep/Sun, 12 Jun 2005 12:55:16 +0200 <p>today i am bored and i don't know why, i've got plenty of stuff to keep me occupied, i could listen to music, watch a movie, make my room a bit tidier, read, play a game and lots of other stuff.<br> i wonder if i really am bored or just frustrated at my indecision, i do feel a little frustrated actually, but that could be down to the fact i haven't had a good night's sleep for a little while, i've sort of been sleeping twice a day for roughly four hours at a time, fair enough i'm still getting 8 hours of sleep a day but i really would rather get it all at once.<br> i still haven't watched trap door like i've been planning to for the last three days, although i really should before i lost the picture as well as the sound on my tv, luckily i can connect the dvd player up to my pc speakers and then use my headphones to listen to stuff, i could just use the speakers but the tv is to the left of my desk so i turn my chair around when i watch something and the sound would end up all going into my right ear, i can't stand it when i can only hear through/in one ear.<br> actually now that i come to think of it, i might watch Idle Hands again although i really want to watch It Was An Accident but my sister took it round my cousin's house a little while ago and it's STILL there grrrr.<br> anyway, that's about it for now, i'll let you all know (although i actually only know of two people that read this blog) if anything interesting happens during the course of the day later tonight.<br> -c</p> <p><img src="http://www.screenselect.co.uk/images/products/5/2235-large.jpg" alt="" title=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/12/less_boredom_more_sleep/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>boredomhttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/12/less_boredom_more_sleep/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/11/i_ve_lost_it_again/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-11:/2005/06/11/i_ve_lost_it_again/Sat, 11 Jun 2005 05:11:41 +0200 <p>well that didn't last very long... i am ofcourse referring to my sleeping pattern, it lasted roughtly 8 hours and now i'm back into staying up late again. it wasn't intentional though, i started to get very tired yesterday afternoon and decided to have a little 2 hour snooze thinking it would make me feel better, i just woke up even more tired but i decided to see how long i could hold off sleep for, i was back in bed by 9:15pm and slept on and off until nearly midnight when i was woken up by somebody shouting outside, so i decided i'd get up, now it's 3:51am.<br> i didn't bother watching trap door either, which is a shame because i wanted to, i could stick it on now but the whole dvd runs for about 3 hours and i want to try go back to bed soon although i did just stick bowling for columbine (sadly not the special edition) in the dvd player, but i'm not sure if i'll end up watching it all or not, i was hoping to watch Gone in Sixty Seconds (the nicholas cage remake) but i couldn't find it.<br> actually, now that i think about it, i'm just gonna try get some sleep and hopefully be able to salvage my sleeping pattern later, i'm getting a bit of a headache now anyway so sleep is probably the best thing for it, or failing that a few nurofen.<br> hopefully i'll have something a bit more interesting to write about later.<br> -c</p> <p><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/nurofen.jpg" alt="" title=""></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/11/i_ve_lost_it_again/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>insomniahttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/11/i_ve_lost_it_again/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/10/a_cold_morning_s_sleep/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-10:/2005/06/10/a_cold_morning_s_sleep/Fri, 10 Jun 2005 08:50:27 +0200 <p>it's 7:30am and it's a little bit cold outside (i only know that because i slept with my window open).<br> i can't really think of much to say right now except that i think i got myself into a normal sleeping routine again, which is good i suppose although it does seem to have given me writer's block, so i'm going to listen to some music or watch a movie or something or maybe even my Trap Door DVD (every episode on one disc!) to try get my ideas flowing although i can sense something about plastecine forming in my head so i might have something to say about that later...<br> -c</p> <p><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/trapdvd.jpg" alt="" title=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/10/a_cold_morning_s_sleep/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/10/a_cold_morning_s_sleep/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/09/cats_the_true_face_of_evil/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-09:/2005/06/09/cats_the_true_face_of_evil/Thu, 09 Jun 2005 09:38:26 +0200 <p>as some of you may or may not know i'm not a very big fan of cats, it's not because i think they're horrible or smell or anything minor like that, i can see past minor flaws as we all have them.<br> i'd actually probably like cats if it weren't for one thing, the occult...<br> you'll always see that apparently it's dogs that guard the gateways to hell and stuff like that, then you have that mean looking dog in that hellraiser movie, and the ones in the resident evil movie, but we all know that, for the most part, dogs are friendly and loving animals and the way they act greatly depends on their owner. however, cats act the same no matter what, and the only real thing you hear about cats is that they're the pets of witches, only it's usually always black cats and the cats don't really get in on the whole spellcasting eye of newt action.<br> no, cats aren't into spells and the dismemberment of insects and small reptiles, to them that's all sissy stuff, cats are into the more hardcore occult stuff, devil worship, animal sacrificing, bloodshed and all kinds of nasty stuff.<br> think about it, you can be sitting there stroking your cat and the cat is pretending to be all into it arching it's back and rubbing against you and stuff, and then it'll lay down on your lap and start purring, and most humans fall for it, this is what the cat wants you to do and you've just done it, that purring which you think is a sign that the cat is happy is actually dark chanting, the cat is preparing to offer blood to the evil cat spirits, you want proof?<br> okay, let's get back to the image of you sitting there with a now supposedly trance like state cat, you've been fooled into thinking that cat loves you and would do anything for your affection... and then it happens, out come the claws and swinging paws, that cat is going to try take your blood as part of it's ritual and it doesn't care which part of your body it gets it from, it may not get much but just think of how many cats all over the world that are doing this, it amounts to a lot of blood.<br> now you have been temporarily branded, more often than not on your hand area, and have you noticed how other cats will always put their heads up towards your hand if they see you going to pet them? they're looking for any branding another cat one of them may have left you with.<br> and i can prove to you that it's true, try stroking a cat wearing a full suit of armour, the cat won't be interested, every now and then you might get some high ranking cat occult leader try his luck at tempting you into removing one part of the armour or it might try get it's claw through the metal, and rest assured if there is any uncovered part of your body they'll find it.<br> also, they're not just after human blood, they'll take what they can, do you honestly believe that dead rodent or bird is a gift?<br> they'll even try get blood from dogs from time to time, and they usually go for the poor dog's face.<br> so if you're going to keep a cat in your home remember what i have said and try to learn from it, it could save your life one day.<br> -c<br> <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/kittygram.jpg" alt="" title=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/09/cats_the_true_face_of_evil/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>catshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/09/cats_the_true_face_of_evil/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/08/crunchy_red_apples_and_bad_photoshopping/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-08:/2005/06/08/crunchy_red_apples_and_bad_photoshopping/Wed, 08 Jun 2005 03:38:57 +0200 <p>so, i finally managed to get to sleep yesterday morning at 9am and slept on and off until around about 6:30pm.<br> i really need to get myself back into a good sleeping routine, i'm going to either go to bed a little earlier than normal OR stay up all day and go to bed around 9 or 10 tonight and hope i don't wake up after a few hours again.<br> anyway, today i thought i'd share with you some of the things i like and some of the things i dislike<br> okay, let's start with some of the things i dislike.<br> i dislike:<br> being too hot, beer, spiders, when small insects land on me, not being able to sleep, forgetting what day it is, my ears popping on a plane, earwax, flannels, being shouted at, the rapid disappearance of novelty slippers from the shops each christmas, when the sun gets in my eyes, cats, those plugin perfume things being on the maximum setting, badly dubbed foreign adverts, adverts, people that speak loudly on mobile phones, drivers who don't indicate, personal injury claims, designer labels, my left foot (not the movie, my actual left foot), ingrown toenails, bleeding, when i wake up and my lips are dry, lemonade that tastes like sherbert, small coffee cups, the way some chefs think the way food is arranged on the plate is more important than how good it actually tastes, parsnips, sugar in my tea/coffee or on my cereal, feeling ill, headaches, being itchy, people that complain audibly about having to wait so long to see the doctor, legal action taken against the NHS, rich politicians, people that say number before saying a number after having said numbers (they keep doing that on the national lottery daily draw adverts), forgetting things, being sad, boredom, how hard it is to find clothes that fit me, boxer shorts with holes at the front, the fact i keep dreaming about airports, spin doctors, sunburn, noisy washing machines, the lid being left off the toothpaste, when protestors resort to violence or vandalism in an attempt to achieve their goals, anyone that dislikes me without a reason. and too many other things to list really.</p> <p>so that's the negativity out of the way, now for the things i like.<br> i like:<br> being comfortable, blue lights, gadgets i can waste money on, cuddly toys, teddy grabby machines, music, sounds, colours, big televisions, this winamp station i'm listening to that i've never listened to before, when i hear a song in a movie i wouldn't ordinarily listen to and like it, when people don't always understand what i'm talking about, the faces people make when they're confused, girls that giggle, holding hands, not being good at pool, my speakers, dogs, furry things, soft skin, long hair, dove soap and bodywash, confidence, the things other people love, doggy (stuffed animal teddy type thing i've had since i was a few months old), morgans spiced rum, sofabeds, pink wafers, pizza, curries, warm bread, jacket potatoes with beans, a nice sandwich, volkswagen beetles and camper vans, the sky, clouds, clear nights so i can see the stars, sunrises and sunsets, when it snows, seeing other people having fun, things i still like now that i liked when i was a kid, trap door, big cities at night with lots of lights, the thought of being on the roof or just up high in a big tall building listening to the sounds of the city below, video clips of sped up traffic, freebies, not reading that often but enjoying it when i do, when people are genuinely interested in what somebody else is talking about, eye contact, rainbows, reflections on the water, things that let you know what they are, shy people, making people blush, photographs, crunchy red apples, when it suddenly goes quiet, having a cold shower after having a hot one, having soft hair, takeaways, flying, anything that looks refreshing, ebay, people that smile at me, women, colouring books, cheese and jam rolls, peanut m&ms, typing, life's little moments, nicknames, not thinking i'm too much of a man to cry or hide my feelings, that i actually like more things than i dislike, being a shoulder to cry on, having fun when i go out, when people i don't know suddenly start talking to me, people that are happy with the way they look, rives and lakes, the sound of the sea, good old family seaside holidays i used to have when i was a kid, when things are better than i expected, seeing somebody i know or recognise when i go out, the way pets of people you know are excited to see you when you see them, monkeys, people that aren't afraid to disagree with you, the fact that you've read everything i've listed so far <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0">, when i forget something and it suddenly comes to me, tall buildings, public displays of effection, buying things for other people, that one time when i was on holiday and was winning stuff from a teddy grabbing machine and a little girl offered me 20p for a silver alien and seeing how happy she was when i just let her have it, things that make me nostalgic, when people get annoyed and you manage to make them laugh, making people laugh while drinking, many many other things...</p> <p>wow, it's 2:19am now and there are loads of other things that are coming to my head but i'm not going to list anymore, but i will list one thing that i would like: to lay down on the grass at night with somebody staring up at the sky and taking it in turns to list things we like.<br> -c.</p> <p><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/rumdog.jpg" alt="" title=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/08/crunchy_red_apples_and_bad_photoshopping/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>favourite-thingshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/08/crunchy_red_apples_and_bad_photoshopping/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/07/insomnia_spaghetti_bolognaise_and_life/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-07:/2005/06/07/insomnia_spaghetti_bolognaise_and_life/Tue, 07 Jun 2005 04:51:34 +0200 <p>at the time of writing it is 3:26am GMT or BST or whatever acronym we're up to now, and i have been awake for roughly 50 minutes after going to bed at around 12:10am.<br> now, ordinarily this wouldn't really bother me, but i only got 3 hours sleep yesterday which is why i went to bed so early (early for me seeing as i went to bed at 10am yesterday), i was hoping for a good 8 or 9 hours and the development of what people would refer to as a normal sleeping pattern, going to bed when it's dark and getting up when it's light instead of, usually, the other way around.<br> well, now that i'm awake, which hopefully not for that much longer as i took a sleeping tablet, i may aswell put something here (other than what i already have done that is).<br> it's not really as strange as a pink wafer revolution or a lego mind control conspiracy theory, it's about this blog and how it's effecting me... for example, it influenced my answer to my mum's question "what do you want for dinner tonight?" yesterday, because the other morning when i was laying in bed (i actually sleep on just a mattress on the floor) i was coming up with blog based puns and what would make a stupid title and i thought of 'Spaghetti Blogonaise' and yesterday evening's dinner of choice was spaghetti bolognaise, i didn't even have to think about the question, i just came straight out with the answer.<br> but it's not only effecting my eating habits (i had pink wafers yesterday for the first time in ages), it's actually kinda keeping me occupied, usually when i get bored i just sit around waiting for something to happen, which 9 times out of 10 doesn't, so i'll just watch a movie or put on some music. but recently when i get bored i'll start thinking about what i can blog about next and it keeps my mind occupied, i actually look forward to posting here and kind of wish i had started a blog sooner.<br> -c<br> <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/spagblog.jpg" alt="" title=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/07/insomnia_spaghetti_bolognaise_and_life/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/07/insomnia_spaghetti_bolognaise_and_life/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/06/welcome_87/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-06:/2005/06/06/welcome_87/Mon, 06 Jun 2005 05:52:00 +0200 <p>i just realised i've made two posts already and not introduced myself properly, well i haven't really introduced myself improperly either, i just sign off each post with -c.<br> okay, so here goes:</p> <p>welcome to my blog, my name is craig smith, i'm 23 years old and i live in a small town called witham in essex which is in the south-east/anglia region of england.<br> i suppose most younger people that live in witham would consider it a boring and uninteresting place to live with nothing to do, and for the most part they'd be right, although it's not a bad place to live there's not much to do for entertainment, we have a few pubs in the town and dotted around the place and have a few semi-decent if not terribly well stocked shops in the town, it's mostly an industrial town with, i think, three large industrial estates.<br> there are 5 or 6, perhaps even 7 or 8, schools in the town from infants to senior to sixth form.<br> i attended both Powers Hall infants and junior school from the mid 80s to the early 90s before moving along to The John Bramston Secondary School (i think it's called Bramston Comprehensive now or something like that), i left school in june 1997 after finishing my exams (bleh).<br> in november of the same year i got myself a job in a local factory, which i managed to keep for 11 months until a bad decision to change the department i worked for over to different management and got myself a real horrible manager who seemed to dislike me, one day after i'd had a day off because i really was genuinely ill (i think) she tried to demote me from my role as a type of quality assurer to working on a production line, but she didn't do this earlier in the day when i had seen her in her office when i went to get something, she decided to do it in the actual work area of the factory which kind of annoyed me slightly and we exchanged words (my words were a bit louder than hers) and walked out to the carpark, got on my bike and pedalled all the way home.<br> about a week after that i started doing various jobs for temp agencies which lasted for about 7 months, it wasn't too bad because most of the time i was working at Farah (a clothing place) unloading or packing lorries which i really enjoyed doing, or i was at a place called Morris Ashby that prints magazines and stuff, which was quite an easy job, i just had to take stuff off a line, or if things were going a bit slow i went into a different section which i couldn't do any work in because i wasn't qualified and because some people i had known at school also worked in there so i had somebody to talk to.<br> then in june or july 1999, can't quite remember the exact date i had a grand mal epileptic seizure (during which i smacked my head on a door frame and got a nice scar), got taken to hospital and prescribed and anti-convulsant which to this day i still take and haven't had a fit since, unfortunately i haven't been in work since either, i kinda developed agoraphobia and became scared to work in the kind of places i'd be happy working in (i'm into manual labour as i like to be active when i work, which usually means working around machinery and jiggery whirry metally things that could cause an injury), i did apply for a few jobs during that time though but didn't get them.<br> as for the other stuff that's happened before, during and since then... well, i think i'll save that for another day and hope i haven't bored anyone that actually is reading this.<br> anyway, if you would like to you can email me at 'boyd1981@hotmail.com' and/or use the same address for msn (especially if you've come here from the link provided in my match.com profile and don't subscribe to their emaily thing and do wish to contact me)...<br> btw, that stuff below about lego and pink wafers wasn't the result of alcohol or mind altering drugs, it was 80% boredom and 18% strange imagination and 2% warm air (current room temperature is 24°c).<br> also, later today i'm thinking of hooking my camera up to this pc and getting a more recent photo and perhaps even a short video clip (which will most likely be in .mov format and badly lit, such is the nature of video recorded with digital cameras)...<br> wow, this turned out to be a much longer post than i expected.<br> -c<br> <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/theface.jpg" alt="" title=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/06/welcome_87/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>welcomehttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/06/welcome_87/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/06/the_secret_life_of_lego/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-06:/2005/06/06/the_secret_life_of_lego/Mon, 06 Jun 2005 02:38:12 +0200 <p>now, everyone has come across lego atleast once in their life and they probably enjoyed it, for the most part it was a boy's thing, we seem to like both building things and destroying them, lego gave us the opportunity to do both.<br> but, have you ever noticed that lego is the one toy that always seemed to fight back? picture the scene, you're on your knees in your bedroom and you have your entire lego collection (perhaps some technic too) spread out over your floor in a nice satisfyingly bright coloured plastic mess, you wander away from the pile for a little while for some reason (i think the lego somehow enters your subconscious and makes you do this), now you're a few feet away from the pile and suddenly you're drawn back to it (the lego, i feel, is also responsible for this, it's demonstrating it's immense power over your mind), so, still on your knees you approach the pile again, you're about half way there when you feel a pain in your knee, somehow one of the lego bricks has broken away from the pile and blocked your path without you noticing, intent on causing you physical injury, you grab the piece of lego and toss back into the pile and begin rubbing your knee (which now has a small rectangular dent in it, i call this lego branding) and make that sound people make when rubbing something that's sore or when you see something happen to somebody else that you know hurt them, it's a sucking in air and wincing kind of sound.<br> now you just start happily playing with your lego again never giving how the piece of lego escaped from your nice pile a second thought, you just accept that it's happened.<br> you're quite free to draw your own conclusions for why this is, but i have my own, i think it's the lego's way of making you grow out of it, it objects to being spread out across your floor like that, knowing that if you don't gather it all up properly once you're finished that your mum might hoover a bit of it up, it's just making sure that you one day decide to leave it alone in a bucket or a box in a cupboard somewhere in peace...<br> -c<br> <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/mess.gif" alt="" title=""></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/06/the_secret_life_of_lego/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>legohttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/06/the_secret_life_of_lego/#commentshttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/05/speaking_out_for_pink_wafers/tag:justanotherblog.blog.co.uk,2005-06-05:/2005/06/05/speaking_out_for_pink_wafers/Sun, 05 Jun 2005 02:01:28 +0200 <p>i've been sitting here for 5 minutes now trying to think of something to put here, something that people would be interesting in reading... but the only thing i can think of is pink wafers, it's been a long time since i've had one of those, i remember they always put in an appearance at birthday parties or any kind of social gathering in which children may attend or if the host really liked them, funny how they always seemed to end up being the only confectionary left, sometimes you'd see part of one just floating around in a half empty plastic cup of flat cola, people seem biased towards them, they wan't to pretend they don't exist, perhaps it's because they're pink and don't try to diguise the fact that they're wafers. i mean how many other wafer products let you know what they are? i can't think of any.<br> so before i go i ask you to please give a pink wafer a home, don't try to drown them in carbonated soft drinks or leave them to watch people enjoying the other food on the table while they just lay there feeling all alone in the world, pick one up and take it home, give it a name and look after it, perhaps if we can all start appreciating the pink wafer we'll all be able to just get along...<br> c.<br> <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/BOYD1981/PinkWaferPanther.gif" alt="" title=""> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/05/speaking_out_for_pink_wafers/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>pink-wafershttp://justanotherblog.blog.co.uk/2005/06/05/speaking_out_for_pink_wafers/#comments