okay okay so it's been a long time since i updated again but as i've said before i really don't want to just fill my blog with mindless rubbish and one sentence posts like "i'm bored today", it's a waste of your time and the blog provider's space... well i know that something as short as that isn't exactly going to break any servers but i still think it'd be a bit... rude.
but anyway, that's not the reason i have summoned you here (if you found your own way here, well done)...
as you may well be aware i've been waiting to have a minor operation since originally going in to have it done in december, but hospital policies and other such hassles got it delayed to a possible date in march. march came, march went, april arrived.
well i got a letter last week from somebody under the impression i had spoken to somebody on the phone to arrange an appointment for yesterday (thursday 6th of april).
this got me excited as i thought i was finally going to get it out of the way and be able to finally start looking for work (i didn't want to get myself a job while i still didn't know when the operation was going to take place and how long i was going to have to take off), but on further inspection of the letter i discovered it was just to see a specialist. long story short: operation ain't happening for another 3 to 6 months, and the chance of the pilonidal sinus (which is what i'm having "removed") recurring is 40 to 50%, and after the surgery i won't have a natal cleft anymore (it's the groove at the top of your arse where the buttocks form) because they're going to bring one side over and attach it to the other in an attempt to stop it coming back, which if you ask me sounds like a right pain in the arse...
all this may sound like i'm complaining about the NHS, but really i'm not, it's the politics behind the NHS, the way it's run and underfunded. i think the NHS is brilliant and a true example of a non-elitist way of treating the nation, it's there and free to anyone that needs it and that's a good thing.
but having said that i'm really quite annoyed at having to wait another 3 to 6 months to get this thing sorted, it really is uncomfortable sometimes when it decides to flare up and just sitting down hurts. i wouldn't mind if it was a constant thing that's there all the time, i would adjust to it. but i never know when this thing is going to give me problems, it could flare up twice in a week or once in two, and it's not always as bad as it was the last time or as good, so it's very hard to adjust to it and therefore it can greatly effect my mood and the way i behave.
BUT, i have a plan. i'm just going to try get on with my life and ignore it the best i can, i'm going to get myself a job, work harder on trying to get myself fit, save some money, try to find myself a nice girlfriend, travel the world a bit and just try to be happier. not in that exact order mind you, but you get the idea.
well that's it for another blog i suppose, i hope i haven't bored you all too much and i promise i'll try update more often and with some more interesting stuff.
-c