just another blog

for a while now i've been thinking about dying my hair, not a wild crazy colour or anything, not that i have anything against people dying their hair red/green/blue what have you (personally i love blue hair on women...), i just want a nice natural looking colour so i've been thinking about going blonde, technically i am actually already blonde but it's really dark compared to when i was but a wee young boy with golden curly locks...
normally i just have my hair shaved off or keep it very short, but after my last haircut (which was actually a trim and not a massacre) i decided to let my hair grow and it's coming along nicely, the thing is that it's getting a little thin on top due to the horrific sunburn i suffered a while ago which you may have read about, so i want to make the most of my hair while i still have it as i'm not sure if the damage done will ever properly heal.
the only thing that's kinda making me think twice is that i really have no idea how it will look and it means i really will have to keep up the shaving and quite possibly get rid of my sideburns, if you can even really call them that...
i know it's not really a life changing decision to make but still i'm having a hard time making it, i think my parents just think i'm being stupid and won't go through with it anyway, but if i can make what is to me a radical decision to actually go ahead and do it and feel confident in having done it who knows what else it might give me the confidence to do...
-c

it's 6:31am by my clock and i've been awake for about 40 minutes, some may say that getting up so early means i have the whole day ahead of me which just isn't true.
if i had got up at midnight when the day was just beginning then i would have had the whole day ahead of me but as it happens i have missed nearly 6 hours of it, so i really only have the whole afternoon and evening ahead of me, so what is the point of getting up early?

in other news (although it's not news because i'm trying to keep that kind of stuff off the blog but may setup another one where i just complain about stuff), nothing is really happening right now except me wishing it was march as i'm expecting a phonecall from hospital about getting a date to go have some minor surgery. if you're really interested it's to have a pilonidal sinus removed which i've had for over a year but only just saw about at the end of last year as it's been getting worse, and for those of you too lazy to go look at a medical encyclopaedia a pilonidal sinus is like a tunnel in your lower back which is full of hairs, this creates an infection and in most cases it finds a way to erupt out through an opening it creates in your natal cleft (it's the lower back where your buttocks form) which is kept as a constantly healing wound which will either bleed or expel pus, it can be very uncomfortable.
i was supposed to have surgery for it last year after my doctor phoned through the hospital and spoke to a surgeon, but it didn't quite work out as simple as me going into the hospital, going on to the ward and then having it done, no that would have been far too conveniant, instead of that i had to go to A&E and hand a letter my doctor had wrote to the surgeon across to the receptionist, then i had to wait a while, then i got called into triage where i was asked some questions and somebody else read the letter, i then got sent back out into the waiting room only to be called in again a while later to have a canular put in, some blood taken and saline injected.
then it's out in the waiting room again, only i can't relax because i have what is basically a plastic tap sticking out of my arm. then a while later i got taken to a ward where more people spoke to me and then after being at the hospital i got told that although the surgery was necesarry it wasn't an urgent case so i got sent home with some anti-biotics and a note for my doctor, and now apparently everything COULD be set for march.
this has been a real drawback for me as i was hoping to get a job in january, but now it looks as if i may not be able to look for one until april after the open wound that the surgery will leave has fully healed, it's a bloody nightmare as i wanted to start saving money for something and now i'm gonna have less time to save, if i can even get a job.
well i really hate to complain like that and i feel it wasn't really that necessary, i could have just made something interesting up or not bothered writing a blog at all, but as i have the whole day ahead of me i am very bored as i always am on a sunday.
well that's really all i can be bothered to write for now, i may update again soon and start talking about games and music and stuff that i like, but i'd really like to start a new blog for that, or even a website as i own a domain and a bit of space but it really depends on how i'm feeling later.
goodbye for now.
-c